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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Please Pray
Ok, some people and maybe even God would call me a hypocrite (although God probably wouldn't have had to spellcheck it like I did) for asking others to pray when all I've prayed about over the past few years has pretty much been my child. However, I'm asking those of you who pray (or light candles, or whatever you may do) to please include a prayer for my friend Katy.

Katy is the friend I mentioned several posts ago who is expecting her first child. Katy is my oldest friend, and while she and I are very different people (I've always thought I should be more like her), we have remained close since we met at age 11. Katy lives just outside Phoenix with her husband Luke, who is in the Air Force (which Ike and Jake both think is extremely cool--he flies planes for a living). Several years ago, but after we were adults, Katy was diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis.

Now all I know about CF I've learned from Katy or from the little I've read about it on the Internet. I'm ignorant, really. But I received an email from Katy's mom this morning saying that Katy is in the midst of two weeks of intravenous antibiotic treatments because she's been having a lot of chest congestion and trouble getting deep breaths. Her baby is doing fine, but I know Katy must be worried. I'm worried, anyway.

So, if you think about it when you pray, please include a prayer for Katy to get through this treatment in good spirits and with the baby staying as healthy as ever.

Thanks.


Quotable Twain
Happy Birthday to Mark Twain, who would be 170 today. You could devote an entire web site to Mark Twain quotes (and I have no doubt that someone out there has), but I just have two:

"It is better to keep your mouth shut and appear stupid than to open it and remove all doubt."

"Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life." (This is my favorite...If I could cross-stitch, I'd put it on a pillow.)


Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Girls vs. Humans??
I just got Jake out of the bath and into pjs (early, so he can play with Daddy a little when he gets home). While he was getting dressed, he said something about Max (on DragonTales) messing everything up. I told him we all have days where we feel that way, since we're all human. Here's what followed...

J: [laughs, falls back on couch] You're not human, Mommy!
B: What?? I am human! All people are human.
J: [laughs again] Nooo! You're not human. You're a GIRL!!!


I thought about explaining Mars and Venus, but I guess he has many years to learn all about gender differences...


Plumber's Crack
My pants keep falling down. Every time I sit, stand, or breathe, my pants slide down a little more. This could almost make me feel really good about my "pants being too big." Until I realize they fall down because the "pregnant pouch" in my jeans just can't handle or cover my huge belly.

Any day now, Annie Mae. I'm ready to wear my non-pouch, non-sliding down below my belly pants...


Great Expectations for the Day
Okay, if you don't do great things on a day like this, you only have yourself to blame. Today is the birthday of both C.S. Lewis (he'd be 107) and Louisa May Alcott (she'd be 173). Lewis of course wrote The Chronicles of Narnia and several thought-provoking Christian works (no, I haven't read them, but I hear from others that they are thought-provoking...). Alcott wrote Little Women, but if you hated it and thought it was cheeseball like I did, don't feel bad: she didn't like it either. She preferred writing dark, Gothic novels in which women who made deals with the devil and ruined children...

Cool.

"The safest road to Hell is the gradual one—the gentle slope, soft underfoot, without sudden turnings, without milestones, without signposts." --C.S. Lewis

Now, go. Write your novels. I'm going to go make a deal with the devil (maybe he'll finish the baby's room).


Pretend Phone Calls
Over the Thanksgiving holiday, we had two surprising, sweet (oh, and pretend) phone calls that I wanted to be sure to post here.

Last Wednesday night, I went to coffee with two good friends. Jake wasn't up to going out, so he and Jake hung out at home. Jake decided to "answer the phone." It wasn't ringing, but you know, he's funny about the phone. Like most kids, I hear. If you want him to talk to someone, he won't. If there's no one to talk to, he's full of things to say to them...

So, Jake answered the phone. He talked for a few minutes. He said, "Ok, bye."

Then he turned to Ike. "Daddy, that was Papa [Ike's dad]. He said to tell you he loves you."

I have tears in my eyes just writing it. It's great that Jake can see the love in his family...

Second phone call: Saturday night, Jake and I went to Tanglewood's Festival of Lights (if you go to the link, click to view photos--it shows some of the best highlights) with my parents and sister. Ike stayed home to have some much-deserved alone time (during which he was apparently bored and overwhelmed with too much time...). We didn't get home until about 11pm, so we put Jake straight to bed.

Ike and I tucked him in, and as Ike kissed him goodnight, he told Jake that Santa had called while we were out. Jake's eyes got big and he asked what Santa said.

Ike: "He asked if you've been a good boy this year."
Jake: "..." (What can any kid say to that? Daddy could've really messed things up for Jake's Christmas plans here...)
Ike: "I told him you've been a great boy."

Jake smiled and went to sleep. Later when I came to bed, he woke up long enough to tell me about the phone call too.

Sweet...


Monday, November 28, 2005
One of Those Things You Just Don't Expect To Hear
[This is a snippet of conversation from tonight while Ike and Jake were playing "Bad Guy Justice League." I had started Jake's bath water and was in the bathroom.]

"Bad Guy Batman, let's go destroy the world while Mommy's peeing!"

[It's odd to hear Bad Guy Superman refer to his "Mommy," isn't it?]


Sunday, November 27, 2005
My Painting Crew


Here are the men of the house, hard at work on repainting the baby's room. We discovered in our quest to cover an earlier flaw (most of you know about the ill-fated stars...) that you can't always get the exact same color in a quart of paint that you do in a gallon. Something about the way it's mixed and rounding up...I don't know. Anyway, we now have A LOT of pink paint left over, if anyone wants any...


I'm Still Here
I'm writing this post for those of you who've been saying things about me not writing in awhile (all the millions of my fans...well, I think Ike and Jane both mentioned it, anyway...). I have a lot to say about Jake's Thanksgiving break, but the problem is that when Jake is on vacation...I am not. This is the first time I've sat at the computer since...last Wednesday.

I'll be back tomorrow, after dropping Jake off at school...


Monday, November 21, 2005
Sleep as I Say, Not As I Do
I just realized the irony. Tonight when my "second wind" kicked in, I made myself a cup of tea and sat down to read. To read a book on how to establish healthy sleeping patterns for my baby...and when I looked at the clock, it was midnight. Perhaps going to bed early myself might be effective in getting my kids to like sleep.

In other sleep-related news, Ike said that when he checked on Jake tonight, Jake said in his sleep, "Ha ha ha! I won't go in that dragon!"

Weird.


Mr. Daddy
We actually don't spend a lot of time with Jake in this family. Most of our time is spent with whomever Jake becomes--various superheroes, transformers, whatever strikes his fancy. When he first started school, he was Robin (from Batman) for a week or more. His left hand is "Nice Shark." His right is "Mean Shark." It can be confusing.

I shouldn't have been surprised tonight when he entered his bath as Scourge (a bad guy Transformer), but emerged as...Mr. Daddy. Yes, I had to pretend to put my husband to bed tonight. Jake was so funny about it. He deepened his voice, stood on his tiptoes, and said, "See? I'm bigger and taller. I'm Mr. Daddy." He went on to say that "Jake" (otherwise known as the REAL Mr. Daddy) had been at school too long tonight. He's planning to put "Jake" in timeout at breakfast (just to warn you, Ike) for being at school so long...

Oh, and you can rest easy, Ike: Despite his protests that he was Mr. Daddy, I put my foot down and didn't let him use your toothbrush.

In other news: Today was a doctor appointment day. Nothing major to report, except that the nurse today said my blood pressure was "perfect" and the doctor said we shouldn't worry so much about the length of my abdomen last time. The baby has now dropped a little (yay! That's the right direction, baby girl!), so my abdomen now measures just fine. I believe he may have said, "Perfect," actually. That's a good doctor visit: when I'm told I'm perfect by everyone I meet. :)

Next appointment is Thursday the 1st.


Friday, November 18, 2005
Done! or...Trusting My Own Judgment When Buying for a Boy
It's official, the Christmas shopping is finished.

Okay, no, it's not actually completely finished, but I've done all I can do without Ike's expertice on boy toys. Today I went out and bought one of the big Santa gifts for Jake, plus everything for the stockings. I'm happy to report that despite last year's major money fiasco in Target (in which I spent $150 on stocking stuffers...), this was smooth and fairly low-budget.

I'm very proud of myself for stepping out on a limb for Jake's ornament this year. Each year we get him an ornament that will go with him when he settles into his first home someday. Each year I try to find an ornament that fits the year: the first year (2001) had an American flag because of the terrorist attacks and renewed patriotism, the second year (2002) was Blues Clues because he was into it...I think one year was Bob the Builder, and last year was Spiderman. This year I will not reveal yet because it's a surprise for Ike, too, but let's just say...I was confused. It was all I could do not to call Ike and say, "Which one is best?" I held back. I may not completely understand the boyness of it all, but at least this one time, I'm trusting my own judgment.

And if I'm wrong, Target has a great return policy. :)

Now we have a few things to order online and Ike has to help me figure out which Transformers are best from Santa, which should come from us, and which should be delegated to parents...then it'll be over indeed.

Whew, Christmas shopping has never seemed so easy!

(By the way, Grandparents, you will get very specific names of Transformers. I would hate for you to have the sinking, "My God, now what??" feeling I had when looking at what seemed like aisles and aisles of robots...)


Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Taking Bets On The Date
Okay, I'm not really taking bets on the birthdate of our second child. That seems greedy or something. BUT I will say that I've had two odd things happen that make two dates seem like possibilities.

First (ignore me if I've written about this before), about a month ago I dreamed that I was working at a counseling center owned by a friend. A man came in because he was in the neighborhood to find out the time of his appointment, which he was sure was the next day. I checked the calendar and saw his appointment was actually the day he was there. He and I argued back and forth, with me repeating, "No sir. Today is December 27th. This is the day you're supposed to be here." Get it? It was his DUE DATE.

Okay, it's a stretch. Well, here's the second thing and it's weirder. Last night before I went out for coffee with a friend, I got Jake ready for bed. He was standing on my bed in his pjs, when he said (totally randomly and out of the blue), "December 18th."

I asked what he meant, and he said he didn't know. Then he pretended to call people from the left and right of him, saying, "Get together, family, get together. Let's all hug Mommy because she's pregnant!" Then he gave me a big hug.

Whew, I've got chills. That kid can be kind of spooky sometimes. If I have Baby Annie on December 18th, I'll have to check into his paranormal skills...

On a different note, I'm proud of myself for walking the neighborhood two days in a row now. Today I kept flashing on the idea of my water breaking just as I got furthest away from the house...I think when I walk Friday, I'm taking my cell phone. Just in case...


Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Big Brother Class
I can't believe I forgot to write about Jake's Big Brother class Sunday. The hospital holds these Big Sibling classes to get kids ready for the upcoming interruption--I mean, baby--in their lives.

Ike had to work, so Leslie came with me as a surrogate. It's like I told Ike. I didn't want to go without another adult, because with my attention to details...I was likely to come home and say, "Yeah, it was a good class. Jake learned...stuff. And we toured the hospital, which was...nice." Not always the best memory. (Muggers, take note: I wouldn't remember your face in a lineup. It's why I never carry anything in my purse.)

The first thing the kids did was listen to Yankee Nurse (sorry to those from the North, but really, she talked funny and even had to have kids repeat themselves because of her "Northern ears"--her words, not mine) talk about changes coming because of the baby and rules about how to NOT handle baby. Jake can show you--no holding the baby upside down and no squeezing it too tight. YN passed a pretend baby around for each of the kids to practice holding, and made a very important point: never pick up the baby. Only hold the baby when an adult is with you. Yes, can we repeat that please? Never, never, never pick up the baby, Jake. She's apparently going to be born as big as you. You'll throw your back out.

Next they got to practice putting on diapers. Each child brought his/her own stuffed animal or doll to use as a baby. Jake has a stuffed dog named Max, which worked well because he also knows a (human) Baby Max. So, he took Baby Dog Max. With help from Leslie, Jake was able to diaper Max. Then swaddle Max in a blanket. He was so proud of his Baby Dog Max. When I gave him a hug after he was done, he pulled away from me and said, "Don't squeeze Max like that, Mommy. You'll hurt him." Lesson learned.

We then toured the Maternity Ward, which I'm happy to report, had no screaming mothers at the time. Maybe it doesn't hurt to have a baby at this hospital... Anyway, Leslie and I both noted that YN seemed to emphasize the comforts they have for dads at their hospital. Uhh...hello?? Does Dad need a fold-out couch, a rocking chair, AND ESPN while I'm in labor? I think not. He'll be standing, with hands ready to be squeezed, uncomfortable. Don't think I've forgotten that the nurses when Jake was born offered to order food for you, buddy. While at the same time offering me stupid ice chips.

Oh...sorry.

Anyway, yes, very comfortable-looking rooms, especially if you aren't BIRTHING A BABY.

We didn't get to see the postpartum rooms because they were full, but we passed them--they're there. We DID get to look in the window of the nursery. The admitting nursery (where babies go right after birth--Ike will take Annie there, just like he did with Jake...oh, my eyes are watering just thinking about it...) had two babies, but no babies were in the regular nursery. This hospital really encourages "rooming in," so after her initial tests and baths and whatever they do (See? No eye for details...), she'll be in the recovery room with me and Ike.

Jake loved seeing the babies in the nursery. I picked him up to look in the window, and he got excited. "Are those REAL babies??" I probably would've asked that myself had I not known better. They were so teeny-tiny...

After the tour, Jake received a certificate saying he completed his course and is ready to be a Big Brother. We had a snack, then left. And I found out that they do weekly tours of the hospital, so soon we'll be heading back, so Jake can show Daddy around.


Sleep Talking
It seems we have a sleep talker in our family. Jake has talked in his sleep off and on for a couple of years, but only when he's sick or has taken cold medicine. My theory is that it knocked him out so that he didn't wake himself up talking.

But lately, he's carrying on conversations all the time at night. Friday night while I was at "Mom's Night In" at a friend's, Ike said he heard Jake talking while he (Ike) was in the bathroom. He assumed he hadn't heard me come home, so Jake was talking to me. Nope. Jake was talking to no one (okay, let's hope it was no one...we all know how I feel about spooky things in the dark). Ike went to the bed, where Jake was sitting up.

"Jake, who are you talking to?"
"Nobody, Daddy."
"Were you dreaming?"
"If I was talking, I was talking while I was asleep." (Really, that's what Ike said he said. Very articulate, even for this boy, while he's half-asleep.)

Last night, Ike and I were watching a movie (half a movie, actually. It's gotten hard for us to stay awake through a whole movie late at night...old people...). We heard Jake talking from the bedroom. Here's what I heard him say. "Remember, don't forget. If you do...(mumble, mumble, mumble)" Who knows who he was threatening in his dream, but apparently, someone was being warned. Anyway, Ike went to check on him and found him, again, sitting up in bed, eyes half-open.

"Jake, who are you talking to?"
"Nobody."
"Were you dreaming?"
"Uh-huh." Lays back down, end of conversation.

Then, in the middle of the night, Jake woke me up when he said, "Yeah!" loudly, like he was excited about something. He didn't sit up or anything this time, just kept sleeping.

My friend Brandee's youngest daughter sleepwalks, and they have an alarm on her door to alert them if she's up and about. My question is this: are we on a slippery slope? Will Jake soon be talking AND walking in his sleep??


Monday, November 14, 2005
No WONDER It's a Crummy Day...
Well, this explains everything. Moby Dick was unleashed on the United States on this day in 1851. No wonder I feel half-finished and difficult to understand...

The morning is getting better, however. I contacted friends with whom I hadn't spoken in awhile, because of my own pregnancy paranoia (thinking they were mad at me), and all is well. I know, Ike, you told me so. We got a letter from our mortgage company saying that because of something having to do with our escrow account that I don't understand, our mortgage payment will go down about $30 starting in January. AND I get to eat lunch with Jake today as part of American Education Week. After lunch I'm bringing him home early. I need his hugs more than his teacher does today.

Now if only I could get through these thank you notes...


Saturday, November 12, 2005
Babies & Cowboys


This is Jake tonight in Cowboy mode. He was inspired to "Giddy'up!" through the living room by his new cowboy hat from my friend Wendy's mother. While in San Antonio, she bought him the hat and Baby Annie the cutest onesie with cowboy boots on it, decorated with the American flag. That's a terrible description of it, so you'll just have to wait to see a picture of her in it next 4th of July. :)

Today was my Baby Shower! I mean...Annie's baby shower... Put on by my friend Leslie (who also did Jake's shower before he was born) and my neighbor Mary, it included several close friends, neighbors, and family members. I'm so grateful and so overwhelmed by everything I received. I mean...everything Annie received... I have many thank you's to write and as much energy as a slug tonight. Looks like the thank yous might have to wait til tomorrow.

One gift that has gotten Jake's attention (other than his hat, his videos, and his Gertie ball, all from Wendy) is the "infant care" set (which includes a thermometer, nail clippers, etc). For some reason, he jumped right into that. We took each item out to talk about what it did for the baby, stopping occasionally to try it on him (he gets to keep one of the nail files). When we got to the aspirator (you know, the big bulb thing), I explained that since babies can't learn to blow their noses yet, you use that to "suck the snot out." (Technical jargon only in this house.) Jake's jaw dropped. He crinkled his nose. And he said, "Oh. My. God." Then ran out of the room to explain it to Ike.

I can't tell if it was disgust or admiration for the thing, but the aspirator certainly made an impression. :)


Friday, November 11, 2005
Eat Two Donuts & Call Me In The Morning
Jake successfully made it through flu shot #2 this morning. We are home (thank you, Veterans, for giving us the day off...and for keeping our country safe and free and stuff...) now, and despite the fact that every time I come in the room, he stops what he's doing and complains about his leg (and how it'll hurt FOREVER), he's playing and jumping around just fine. Imagine that, he survived a shot...

He was very brave this morning, telling the nurse he wasn't afraid, but he wanted her to do it "100 fast." (In his mind, that's the fastest you can do anything.) He kept a straight face until the pants were lowered and the shot was uncovered...then he freaked out a little. Only until the shot was over, then he was ready for his Batman sticker AND the medicine I'd promised him...

That medicine being the cure to every ailment: Krispy Kreme donuts.* That's right, I bribed my kid: get this shot and we'll go get donuts. It's good that he didn't notice that I didn't have to suffer, but I still got donuts.

So we've had the shot, we've had the donuts, and now we're done. Time to relax and enjoy the day.



*Footnote: Krispy Kreme donuts are actually not a cure for obesity, heart disease, high blood pressure, diabetes, high cholesterol, and most other diseases from which our food-obsessed country suffers. But they do cure children of flu shot pains.


Thursday, November 10, 2005
The One We've Been Waiting For
I knew my mother-in-law had a good close-up picture of Jake in his Halloween costume. Here it is, the picture I've been wanting to post! I know, I know, Halloween is long over, but I couldn't go without posting this one.


A Day in Jake's Life
Today I got to spend the day in Jake's classroom. I already had tons of respect for his teacher, but let me tell you. I practically worship her now. What a busy class! I had a great time and was very proud of Jake's behavior all day...here's how it went.

When we first got there this morning, each child was putting away his/her bookbag, coat, lunchbox (One child was very helpful at telling me where to put my lunchbag. 4-year-olds apparently love to tell adults what to do...not that I didn't know that). Quiet music played to help the kids settle in for a good day. At 8:00, Mrs. Ventura started the day by ringing her bell and calling the kids over for group time. She welcomed each child, they talked about the day of the week and the month, and children who had something to share had a chance to talk.

On a typical day, they go from this time to a Work Cycle that lasts until 10am, but this morning they had 15 minutes of Work Cycle, then went to "Relax class." I'll explain Work Cycle later.

Relax class was yoga and movement. I don't know that it relaxed the kids...but I did notice something Jake has told me about in the past. They start and end class with "Candle Breathing," where they cup their hands together (like they're praying) and pretend their hands are a candle's flame. They work on deep breathing while they "blow the flame," moving their hands around. Jake actually told me about this at the beginning of the school year when I was irritable--"Mommy, you need to practice your candle breathing to calm down." They also acted out parts of a story about a mountain, in which they did several yoga moves. Several of the kids had trouble paying attention and staying on their mats, but Jake paid attention and did everything he was supposed to. That was the theme for the day--we've got a good kid here.

From Relax class, we went back to the classroom for Work Cycle. In a Montessori classroom, each child finds "work" to do, based on their interests and abilities. In other words, unless the kids were working as partners, they were all doing separate things. I noticed that the younger kids (preK'ers like Jake) spent a few minutes wandering, watching the big kids, then finally settling down to their own work. It was amazing to see what these kids worked on. Such a wide range and, with the exception of two kids who had trouble all day, the children were all very respectful of each other's work. They were also very polite with me, showing me what they were working on and sharing what they'd learned. Jake worked on a coloring activity that helps him recognize color words, then he moved on to the "Spindle Blocks," which was a counting activity. He and a friend then taught me the correct way to roll up a mat (they do all of their work on mats, unless they're writing at a table). Finally he finished up with the same friend and large brown blocks. I don't know the intended purpose of those blocks, but I think I heard Jake say something about building a robot...

Just like Jake, all the kids seemed restless right around 10, as Work Cycle ended. So the teaching assistant took the kids out to run around on the track for a few minutes, then they headed back in to wash up for lunch.

Lunch was fun, but I was bullied out of my food...This little girl sitting beside me looked pointedly at my apple and said, "I want an apple. I wish I had an apple. My daddy didn't pack me an apple. I want an apple..." until I gave in and gave her my apple. After she finished that, she started with my chips. "I want chips. I wish I had chips..." etc. Oh well...

We went directly from lunch to recess, where the kids were all over the place. How in the world do teachers keep up with them?? Jake ran the track three or four times, then ran circles around me and the teaching assistant. He also spent a good deal of time being silly for Cayley, the girl he likes. I like her, too, by the way. She was very polite and sweet and grown-up. I approve after all.

Next we went in for a story. Normally this time of day is more of a "Group Lesson," but there was a disturbance with one little boy before lunch, so Mrs. Ventura was out a lot of this time dealing with him. I won't dwell on that boy, since he's not my son, but whew! Teachers don't get paid enough to deal with a child like that... Anyway, because their teacher was out and they were tired, a few of the kids acted out at this point. Not Jake, by the way. He was very good. I was asked all day if he was that good at home, and you know, I had to say yes. We're very lucky to have this child who behaves well and really is self-disciplined most of the time. If he feels out of sorts, he'll put himself in timeout in his room. Of course, I didn't tell anyone about him hitting Ike at breakfast because we wouldn't let him have candy... :)

So. The teacher was gone, the assistant was dealing with discipline problems...I stepped in to read the story and calm kids down. You know, it felt very natural to be with the kids, making sure they stayed in their places quietly and listened to the story. But every day? Hmmm...maybe as the librarian...who can send each class away after an hour or so.

When Mrs. Ventura returned, the kids laid down for naptime. I did a little work for Mrs. Ventura and had a chance to talk to her quite a bit. Then naptime ended and I brought Jake home. (He was excited to leave a little early, instead of having to wait to go out with the car riders. I was excited not to wait in the dreaded car line!)

That was our day. Now we're home...and I'm heading off to take my own nap. I'm exhausted, but very pleased with Jake's school experience. And him. I just can't tell him enough how proud I am of his behavior.


Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Simple Pleasures
Today two of Jake's best friends came over to play. After exhausting anything fun to do in the house, they wanted to go outside to play in the leaves. If you could see our yard right now...we have plenty of leaves to play in. It's terrible for Ike, but fun for kids.

They played for at least twenty minutes, taking Jake's wheelbarrow and filling it with leaves. They then dumped the leaves into a pile. I think the plan was to make a pile big enough to jump in, but they all lost interest before they got that far.

Apparently there just weren't enough leaves already in the yard for these three overachievers. I looked up from my book (yes, I'm lazy and wasn't helping) to see all three of them throwing their bodies at one of our larger trees. I watched, trying to figure out why they wanted to slamdance with trees...when I realized they were trying to get the leaves to fall down...by knocking them off the giant tree...

Eventually a leaf fell (because of the wind, not the kids' efforts). Jake's friend Lexi reached down to grab it, held it over her head triumphantly and shouted, "A leaf fell! A leaf fell!"

Too cute. One more reason to love fall.


A BABY!!!
No, no, I didn't birth my baby yet. But I did just get off the phone with my old, dear friend, whom I've known since sixth grade. And she's having a baby!! I'm so excited! She lives in Arizona, so I won't get to see her much during her pregnancy, but yay! Katy's having a baby!

What great news. :)


We Voted!
Jake had yesterday off from school because of Election Day. Now at first, I thought that was a little ridiculous. Yes, some of the schools are polling stations, but does the entire school system have to stay home, especially given that they also have Friday off for Veteran's Day??

I changed my mind. First of all, I love having Jake at home with me. Sure, he can drive me a little crazy after a full day at home, but one of the reasons we didn't do preschool up to this point is that I really enjoy spending time with him. Call me crazy, but I like the kid.

Secondly, this was a great chance for Jake to see "democracy in action." Now, I'm not a political person. I don't want to share my political beliefs with you (unless we agree wholeheartedly) and I don't want to hear yours, and please please don't make me debate politics. BUT I do have opinions and I do care who our leaders are. Even if it's just the local people whose names I can't remember once they're elected. It also helped that Jake came home from school Monday saying, "Tomorrow you need to go vote, Mommy, because you're over 18."

So, yesterday Jake and I went to our polling station and voted. I explained each category ("The mayor is the president of our city.") and told him why I voted for who I chose ("Well, this guy is running unopposed, so we might as well vote for him. I've read this woman's website and agree with her, plus we know some friends of hers. And then, honey, I vote for people based on how their name sounds. City Councilwoman Jones sounds respectable, doesn't it?"). Okay, I did a little guessing on two of my votes, but I was pleased to see that when I read about them after the fact, they're who I would've voted for had I known more...lucky guess, in other words.

Jake also got to vote in "Kids Voting." I think he was supposed to be in kindergarten, but I explained that he's in a preK/K combination class and tried to look very pregnant (not hard for me--people ALWAYS bend the rules for the preggers lady), so she let him vote. The kids got the same choices for candidates, plus a few extra questions. Most notably, Jake got to decide whether he would vote for the lottery were he in the NC Legislature. I explained the lottery as best I could, and despite his statement that he'd "rather put the money in his piggy bank to save for a lightsaber," he voted pro-lottery. Mike Easley should be proud--the next generation supports his lottery, too.

Jake got M&Ms for voting. When I asked the volunteers for my candy, they laughed and said adults didn't get any.

Well, THAT explains low voter turnout, don't you think?


Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Bathroom Discussions
When Jake sits on the potty, he likes to talk. I find that if I stay in the bathroom with him, we could be there 30 minutes, having a conversation. I've thought seriously about offering him the newspaper sometimes...

This morning while sitting on the potty, he decided to tell me the differences between me (girl) and him and Daddy (boys). This is one of his favorite conversations in the bathroom.

"I have a penis."
"Yes, you do."
"You don't have any penis."
"No, I don't."
"It's too bad you don't have a penis because you can't pee standing up."

It's true, it would be more convenient in public bathrooms...


Monday, November 07, 2005
Dr. Visit: Try My New Hypochondria & Paranoia Cocktail
Back from today's doctor visit. Once again, I really liked this new doctor. In fact, he's been my favorite so far in the practice, but from what I hear about the next doctor I'll see (two weeks from today), the best is yet to come. Apparently there are only two doctors in this practice (which has 7 doctors and one nurse practitioner) whom I dislike. They just happen to unfortunately be the first two I saw. Here's hoping I go into labor at 4am and those two aren't on call...

Ok, the good news about today's visit: only one pound weight gain since my last appt two weeks ago. This is much better news than the 14 pound gain before, AND apparently this baby is (yet another) whopper. That means more of this weight is her than I'd thought...maybe. More on that in a minute.

Now moving away from good news...Ok, I have not been a hypochondriac since the day Jake was born. I will admit I was one before that, finding any excuse to miss class in college or work after I graduated. When Jake was born, I discovered a harsh reality no one tells new mothers: Mama can't be sick. Ever. No calling in sick to the baby, no sick pay. No sleeping in. So, goodbye hypochondria, by force basically.

However, I find myself suddenly filled with paranoia (okay, that's been around the whole pregnancy really, but mostly about what people think of me) and hypochondria.

Today the nurse took my blood pressure. "Hmm...it's higher than normal," she mused. I jokingly said, "Does this mean I can go on bedrest?" What scared me was her response to my joke: blank (or stern, depending on your take on it) stare and rapid-fire questions. "Do you feel pain here? Have you been having headaches? Dizzy spells? Seeing spots before your eyes?" Aaack!! No, lady, no! Leave me alone, I'm kidding. I have to finish Christmas shopping before we can even discuss these things!

When I got home, I looked up blood pressure on webMD, and I don't see that I have anything to worry about. Mine is 124/74, so that seems fine. (Mary Lou, if you read this and disagree, please let me know.) I'm sure Ike is screaming right now, "If you'd walk like I've been telling you to, this wouldn't be an issue!" Well, Mr. Smarty-Pants, I did walk today--30 minutes. And look what it did to my blood pressure. ;)

So, moving on. Nice Dr. Tomlin talked to me longer than any other doctor I've met there before. Still doesn't compare to Dr. Patel in High Point, but I'll take it... We listened to the baby's heartbeat (I could listen to her heartbeat all day long...it's so beautiful), and he measured my ever-increasing belly. "Hmmm," he says, "How large was your first baby?"

"8 lbs, 9 oz," I reply.

"Well, this one won't be a small one either. Let's just say your abdomen is measuring on the healthy side of normal at 34"." Now let's be honest, doctor. By healthy, you mean hefty, right? Because I would still feel pretty healthy if you'd just please tell me this kid is coming out 7 lbs, 4 oz. Or even 8 lbs, 2 oz. Or hey, I know I can birth 8 lbs, 9 oz; I've done it! But please please please don't let this baby be bigger than that.

So we talked about my concerns over the fact that with Jake, the doctors thought I'd need a c-section. I'd really like a heads-up if that's going to be an issue this time. Dr. Tomlin scheduled an ultrasound appointment for me at 39 weeks, so we (as he put it) "can see if we're having a 10-pounder here."

Um...God? Have you noticed that I'm a small woman??


Sunday, November 06, 2005
One Book Down: 96 More To Go
At some point, I mentioned trying to read at least one of these books each month, starting in January. It's close enough to January that I think this counts. I just finished White Teeth, by Zadie Smith, last night. That means I've only got 96 more to go on the list...Actually, I've read more than just 4 of the books, but I'm going to re-read several of them because it's been so long that I remember very little about them.

Anyway, I liked this book. It kills me that Ms. Smith and I are the same age...and she's published two novels. But hey, soon I'll be able to say I've birthed two kids...Which might sort of equal it all out...

White Teeth started slowly for me, but once I got into it, I really enjoyed it. I'm not going to give away anything about the book (especially since Desperate Housewives starts in two minutes), but I do think it's interesting that my library classified it as "African-American Fiction." Smith is neither African, nor American. I believe she's British-Carribean, actually. None of her characters are African-American. In fact, most of her main characters are Bangladeshi Muslims.

So I don't know. The author is black. I guess if the author is black, her novel is classified as African-American. My first novel will be Southern-White-Girl Fiction. :)

After I read a few books I've borrowed from a friend, I plan to read my next choice on the list: All The King's Men.


Thursday, November 03, 2005
Cutting Back Officially
Well, I've put my money...no, actually my email...where my mouth is and finally scaled back something in Jake's and my social life. I'm amazed at just how much guilt I've let myself feel about this, but that's the beauty of email: no face-to-face contact.

Jake and I have been in two playgroups for awhile now. I like the moms in both groups, and Jake has fun anywhere he goes, but with school, it has become too much. Last week I told one playgroup leader we were leaving and tonight I "resigned" from my position in a club for stay-at-home moms. I'll write one more newsletter (ironically, it will be due right about the same time as the baby), then I'll train someone else to take over.

I have this overwhelming need to have people like me. This has been the problem. I like the women who were in the playgroup I'm leaving, and I was afraid they'd think badly of me for leaving. But then I realized just how ridiculous that is. Not just ridiculous, but arrogant. Arrogant to think that other mothers have enough time to think about me when they have their own things going on. :)

So, Jake and I are down to one playgroup and I really feel good about it. It's an active group, full of mothers I've grown to love and children Jake has grown to treat like siblings (which isn't always loving...but very comfortable for the kids). Yay for us.

Now what can I get involved with next...? (Kidding, kidding.)


Lunch With Anonymous
I found out today who my Anonymous commenter is! Probably no one else has noticed (except Ike, who listened to me wonder about it), but I've been getting a few comments from "Anonymous." Not spam, which I'm leery of, but real comments from someone whom I thought I didn't know.

Today Anonymous was revealed, and he even bought me lunch at Panera. Thanks, Anonymous! Your secret is safe with me. :) (Although I'm still embarrassed about the Norte Georgiana thing...definitely not a geography whiz, huh?)


Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Thanksgiving Menu Planning Continues...
My mother-in-law's response tonight...

Dear Ike,
We will take all of the committees' suggestions under
advisement andappreciate your input toward the
betterment of the written menu. We will be happy to
provide the committee with samples of each item for a
nominal fee. If you wish to proceed with this we will
send a pricelist.
Please have your lawyers draw up the contract and we
will be happy to sign. The issue of bonding is not
problematic as we have been bonded for many years.
You can call the Better Business Bureau to confirm there
has never been a Holiday Meal that was not provided as
promised. The only issue left to discuss is the date
for the occasion which can be decided within the next
two weeks. Thank you for your business and we look
forward to this upcoming event.
Sincerely, Your Mother, C.E.O.




Me & Oprah: Good Pals
Maybe it's because I spend a good deal of time at home (I'm not complaining--I love being at home!), but Jake seems to be making up imaginary friends for me. Consider this:

FLYLady: Jake asked me recently, "Mommy, do you enjoy working with FLYLady?" When he and I watched a short video of her on the internet, he said, "Wow, that's what your FLYLady looks like?" And once when the house was messy (which may have been a coincidence), he said, "I know you don't work with FLYLady anymore..."

Oprah: Jake actually likes to watch Oprah from time to time (sorry, Ike). Recently while the show was on, I was on the phone and Jake told me, "Mommy, I can't hear the show!" Oops...Anyway, just now he asked me, "Mommy, does Oprah know your name?" Now it's up for debate as to what he meant by this: 1)"Mommy, are you and Oprah good friends?" or, 2) "Mommy, why would you spend so much time admiring someone who doesn't know you exist?"
Hmm...

On another "Things Jake Said" note, yesterday afternoon he asked me for a piece of Halloween candy. When I said he could have one, he said, "But Daddy says I have to spread it out." Thinking this was a good idea to not eat all the candy at once, I said, "Yes, honey, you should spread out your Halloween candy."

Jake then grabbed his Halloween bag, dumped the candy on my bed, started moving the candy around and said, "Okay, will you help me spread my candy out, Mommy?"

Smart kid.


Card-Carrying Members
It turns out that Ike and I have recently joined two new organizations, one without our knowledge.

The first we joined intentionally, although both of us are still a little embarrassed that we're really this old. No, it's not the AARP--we've still got a few years before that one (I have one more year than Ike does...). It's the National PTA. That's right, we have little green-and-white cards in our wallets that denote membership and apparently give us discounts to certain places...if we're not ashamed to pull out the cards...

Last night I discovered another membership. While paying our car insurance bill, I noticed that we save $25 on our policy because of our membership in...the AERA. When I asked Ike about this, he said that the last time he spoke to a Customer Service person at our insurance company (which shall remain unnamed, so they can't take away our discount), they were insistent that we must surely belong to an organization that would save us money. At the time, we were not yet PTA members, so Ike said no, we weren't. Well, maybe, if it counts that he was a member of Mensa, but hadn't renewed his dues recently.

The CSR breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Yes, Mensa! That's on our list!" Well...apparently it wasn't. So she put us in the first organization on their approved list...the AERA.

We spent part of last night trying to figure out just who this group might be. The Association of Equal Rights Amendment supporters? The American Eagle Rangers Association? Able-Bodied Eaters' Rights Anonymous?

This morning I got online to check it out. We are either members of the American Educational Research Association OR the Engine Rebuilders Association (I don't know why they have that first "A"), depending on whether you're looking .net or .com. We could also quite possibly be members of the Ancient Egypt Research Associates, which I think sounds cool. There's also the Amikaro de Esperanto en Radio...
but I don't know what that means, so I refuse to join...And if we choose to look Down Under, we could be members of the Australian Endurance Riders Association.

Amazing. All these possibilities...and we don't even know what benefits are available to us as members.


Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Ike's Response
Ike responded to his mom's menu in the following email. I can see Jake growing up to be a man like this. I believe the term is smartass...

Dear Mrs. Quigley,

After careful consideration of your proposed
Thanksgiving Holiday Menu by the Culinary Standards
Committee for Holiday Quality (aka C.S.C.H.Q.) we are
pleased to inform you that your proposal has been
accepted. There were two minor issue we would like to
bring to your attention.

1) The use of the word "congealed" in line item 8,
"Congealed Cold Cranberry Salad" was referred to the
Culinary Standards Adjective Usage Sub-committee and
it was recommended that whereas "congealed" suggests
old or spoiled, (ie. The blood congealed on the
festering open wound.) that it be replaced with a more
suitable adjective. Recommendations included;
Gelatinous, Tasty, Scrumptious, Refreshing and
Luscious. We leave it up to your discretion for
appropriate action.

2) There was also a suggestion in the general
committee that line item 16, which reads "Hand Picked
Deep Dish Apple Pie," might be changed to "Deep Dish
Hand Picked Apple Pie," as that one might confuse the
deep dishes as being hand picked rather than the
apples. Of course, it might have been your intention
to hand pick the dish that will be used to bake the
apple pie, but insofar as hand picking a dish is not
nearly as special as hand picking the apple
ingredients, we felt that this was the message you
wished to convey.

At this time, we feel it is appropriate for you to
begin planning the menu as such. However, before you
begin, you must be aware that several legal issues
must be taken care of beforehand. First, it is
necessary, of course, for you to sign a written
contract binding yourself to such a menu. We suggest
contacting our law office as soon as possible to
comply with this requirement. Second, it is also
suggested that you obtain some form of bond or
insurance to protect yourself against any legal
proceedings, should you find yourself unable to
complete the menu as described owing to any
unfortunate natural disasters such as flood, fire or
cracked eggs. I'm sure, with your exemplary record of
cooking perfect Thanksgiving meals throughout the
years, you'll find the cost of such protection
minimal.

Finally, now that we have approved the menu, we
suggest creating samples of each item and sending it
to our office for final approval. Perhaps a full
twenty business days before the scheduled holiday
dinner would be acceptable.

Thank you for your prompt response to our request per
our oral conversation yesterday. We look forward for
the annual meal towards the end of this calendar
month.

Best Regards,
Your son.


The Thanksgiving Menu
In light of the post I wrote earlier regarding Ike and his Thanksgiving needs, I thought I'd update the blog with what has come next. My mother-in-law really did send Ike a menu to approve, in the funniest way. Here's her email:
Dear Ike,
The following attachment contains the Thanksgiving Dinner Menu for your approval. If revisions need to be made please contact us as soon as possible so we can purchase the correct food items.
Sincerely,
Your Mama

With the menu attached (It had an apple border that I wanted to include, but I can't figure out how to cut and paste it):

Thanksgiving Menu

2005

Golden Brown Roasted Turkey

Savory Thin Sliced Spiral Cut Ham

Moist Mouthwatering Baked Dressing

Smooth Aromatic Turkey Gravy

Creamy Delicious Mashed Potatoes

Hot Steamy Green Bean Casserole

Sweet Potato Candied Yams

Congealed Cold Cranberry Salad

Fresh Lightly Stuffed Deviled Eggs

Perfectly Baked Unburnt Dinner Rolls

Real Tea

Assorted Soft Drinks

Wine

Baked to Perfection Pumpkin Pie

Sweet Cherry Crumb Pie

Hand Picked Deep Dish Apple Pie

May I someday be such a mother. :)


Another Day Home
We've decided to keep Jake home one more day. He just isn't quite right and had a low fever again earlier this evening. I'm hoping one more day will make all the difference. I am a little worried that it'll be tough for him to get back into school after five days off. I guess this will be good practice for Christmas break...


The Quigleyville Horror
Saturday night while Jake was at Granny and Papa's, we watched the remake of The Amityville Horror. Ike said the original is scarier, but this one was scary enough for me...Horror movies tend to stick with me way too long. Even bad ones. When Jake was a newborn we watched Blair Witch 2, which wasn't even scary...and yet for months when I got up in the middle of the night to check on the baby, I saw scary Blair Witchy things in our windows. The Ring lasted for at least a year, with me seeing the little girl coming down our hallway in the middle of the night...every night. The kid from The Grudge was at my bedside every night for two months, if only I'd open my eyes to see him. And please don't mention the twins from The Shining after dark. Long hallways, especially in hotels, only mean one thing to me. "Come play with us, Becky. Forever and ever and ever..."

So, no matter the quality of horror, it's enough to get my imagination going. Especially late at night. Last night, for example, I stayed up later than Ike (not normal in our house). Going to bed, I told myself, "It's okay to turn off all the lights. This house isn't old enough to be haunted." I even managed to turn off all the lights and walk through the house in the dark (but I couldn't look at any windows or in mirrors). All was well, I fell asleep quickly, with no boogeymen or scary small children.

At 3:15am (ok, it was 3:30am, but 3:15am is significant in The Amityville Horror), Jake sat up, looked toward the bedroom door and said, "Mommy, who is that person looking at our clock?"

Was I scared? You bet I was! "Jody is my friend, Mommy." "Danny's not here, Mrs. Torrence." "Red Rum." These things always come from kids! I turned on the light, no one was there, we all went back to sleep.

Ok, Jake went back to sleep. I lay awake for an hour, trying not to look at the kid from The Grudge, who was back at my side of the bed...again.


A Successful Halloween & Our First Day of Hookey
Today is the first day Jake has missed of his school year. Not bad, since we made it to November (okay, it's November 1st...but still November). He had a fever Sunday that became a bad cough and stuffy nose yesterday. He probably could have gone to school today, but I want to keep him home one more day to make sure the fever doesn't return and to let him rest to help get rid of the cough. Fortunately, yesterday was a teacher workday (always a weird thing to call those days...aren't teachers working when the kids are there??), so he's only missing one day.

Like any good mother would, I let Jake go trick-or-treating last night despite his cold. He was just too excited to miss it. Like I told Ike, school comes every day, but Halloween is only once a year. :) Of course, in typical Jake fashion, he told people at several houses, "I have a small fever." Yep, I win Mother Of The Year for that...

He got tons of candy after fewer than 10 stops. I'd say we were only out about 45 minutes, and part of that time was spent trekking to the best house in the neighborhood. The house that pulls out the fog machine, all the decorations, makes apple cider and homemade treats...We've made sure to go there every year for three years. From the looks of it, people seem to drive to our neighborhood just to stop there. I know it's no longer a safe enough world to have everyone make homemade food to give kids at Halloween...but it's nice to know at least one family that does it. This year more people seemed to get into the spirit, with a few (contained) fires and more decorations than ever. Ike says that next year he wants to put more effort into it to get more of the kids onto our street. That'll be good, since I'll probably stay home with the baby to give out candy while Ike and Jake forage the streets. Maybe I can get them to bring me back some cider...

We've now entered Ike's favorite part of the year: the countdown to Thanksgiving. While I got Jake ready for bed last night, Ike called his mom to make sure they agreed on the menu for the Big Day. I prayed aloud that my own son won't be so picky someday... :) I think they left it at Mary Lou sending him a written menu for him to approve. (I hope that was a joke, but Ike takes Thanksgiving very seriously...)

For the record, I'm happy as long as there's too much food on Thanksgiving. I love the overstuffed, sit-on-the-couch-and-don't-move feeling...